Freezing Showers, 5 am Wake Ups, And Being a Badass

“Why the fuck am I doing this?”

It was 5 am, a monday, and minus 20 in the middle of Canadian winter (that’s Celsius for you Americans reading this).

I was standing naked in my bathroom staring at the mirror and trying to talk myself into what seemed like complete insanity at the time.

“Ok, let’s do this”

I stepped into the shower and slid the door behind me. There was no escape now.

I set the knob to the coldest extremity it would turn to, and then pulled the lever.

Discipline, discipline, discipline

I had none.

Or so I thought.

The first time I ever realized I had discipline was the first time I quit watching porn.

By day 24 I felt like a superhero – like there was nothing I couldn’t do.

So I decided to challenge myself more and more.

You see, a man assesses his life with complete honesty, finds where he needs to make a change, and then he does something about it.

I first decided to start taking freezing showers because I learned about the health benefits, and also because of the monumental willpower it took to set foot in the shower and to take the shock of freezing water.

I first decided to start waking up at 5 am because I knew that success would not come to me, waiting by my bedpost after while I woke up at 11 am. I had to chase it down with a club, ruthlessly and fearlessly.

I first decided to quit watching porn when I realized that I saw women as tools, not as people (cliche, I know). I remember standing in my bedroom with a beautiful American girl, pushing her against the wall and leaning in for a kiss – and feeling absolutely nothing for her as a person. No Passion, no desire, no lust… Just mechanical obligation.

I wanted things to change, so I changed them.

The Masculine Grows Through Challenge

When I turned off the water and stepped out of the shower, shivering, I looked at myself in the mirror and just burst into uncontrollable laughter.

I wasn’t having a ton of fun – my body just went into shock.

Gradually though I calmed down and went about my day.

This happened the first three times if I remember correctly, and after that my body was used to it.

Now, almost two years later, taking a hot shower feels… Weird. It’s almost like a reward, something rare that I don’t quite know how to feel about. Sometimes when I’m taking a hot shower, I turn the hot water into cold after about 30 seconds – it just doesn’t feel normal to not come out shivering and awake.

Look, the point is that the masculine grows through challenge.

If there are things in your life that you want to change (I hope so), then it is YOUR responsibility to take action.

You can spend years reading my stuff, spend hours watching my videos, and sit and meditate on all of it for months on end, but at the end of the day it’s all mental masturbation – all noise.

No one is going to make these changes for you

Bottom line is this: If you are not leaning past your edge, you are not growing as a man.

Why Are You Doing This?

I talk about the ‘why’ often, but it’s worth reiterating.

I don’t really have trouble jumping out of bed in the morning.

I don’t really reel from rejection or failure all that much.

I’m a generally pretty upbeat and positive guy – you can be that way too!

It’s simple really…

The moment your goals outweigh your fears, that’s when you’ll find purpose.

You can be dragged kicking and screaming down the path someone else has designed for you, or you can skip along excitedly down the path of your own design.. Those are your two options.

Everything else is noise.

So I ask you now: What are you willing to do to achieve your goals?

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